I woke up this morning for the first time feeling like everything is going to be okay.
It’s been 2 months since my husband moved out. I’ve been waking up every morning with amnesia and have had to remind myself of my new life.
This morning I awoke in my room and saw this beautiful burst of sunlight and flower pins and hairclips that I had hanging and remembered what I loved. What inspires me. What makes me get up in the morning.
In writing my Painting book I realized that I was writing medicine to myself, my future self. As Helen Keller said:
Furthermore that the adventure and the daring part is just about aligning yourself to what makes you feel alive. My husband and I had a beautiful and complex relationship where we loved each other and were artistic allies. There is so much mystery to people. There is so much that I won’t understand, but what I do know is that we must continue to “show the world our magic” and align ourselves to our own truth and aliveness.
Today I decided to paint my own magic for the first time in my studio in months and it felt AWESOME.
I realized while writing my book that what you put on your canvas is really a mirror for your life. By being daring on my canvas, my life broke open in a new way and is waiting for me to begin.